haunted

It's 2011 now. I thought things would change, and maybe for a day or two they did, but things always stay the same. Last night I dreamt about Clara. I often dream of Clara. I haven't spoken to or heard from her for 6 months but still, she's there. It's like a much less exciting version of Inception. The her in my brain becoming less and less like the girl I knew. Can I do anything before she leaves my brain? Or do I have to move on before the spectre will leave?

A large part of the problem lies within my not moving on is to do with my not feeling attractive. I was once, I am sure of it. Girls wanted me. Was it because I was in a relationship at that time? Did I become more attractive by my being in a relationship or did the confidence and happiness that I had by being in a relationship make me a more attractive person? I'm hoping the latter.

This all said, I have some things for the future that are looking exciting. I hope there are more parties. I can do parties.

2011 YEAH??